I honestly never thought it would happen, but things are getting easier.
There are still times that it feels like all the progress I'm making falls apart, when the heartbreak creeps back in, and I know it will always be there, lingering in the background, but it's gradually having less and less effect and I know that soon it'll be nothing but a memory.
Despite that haunting feeling I'm actually feeling far happier than I've been in what feels like forever. Sometimes I tell myself I should just man up, get on with everything and fuck the past, but that's not something I can do.
Sometimes it's best to take your time. Sure, I could just go for the quick fix, try to find happiness in revenge, in being petty and bitter, but I don't need any more negativity. I know everything will work out in the end, even if it doesn't always seem like that.
The most important thing I've realised is that I need to find happiness in myself, rather than relying on anyone else. The last thing I want is to feel like I need anyone.
